Dear Olivia,

What can I say but that you are incredible. I admire you and your strength. you might not see it but you are so incredibly strong. There is nothing wrong with getting help. It is scary because it is unknown to you. You don’t know what to expect and what will happen. But I believe in you. I know this will be good for you and that you’ll come out as the amazing woman you are. I hope you find and see that goodness inside you. You deserve to know how amazing you are. you are the best friend out there. I admire your courage. You are beautiful and deserve to see that.

"There is nothing to fear but fear itself." you will be safe. You are getting help and it’s ok. There’s nothing wrong with it. you deserve to feel loved and accepted by you. You deserve to love yourself. you are not fat you are incredible. I believe in you and I will be praying for you while you are away. I know you’ll be ok. I know this will be good foryou. I promise it. <3

I love you so much and I wish you the best <3

Thank you so much best friend. I love you so much

I am going to be in recovery for my eating disorder and I will be away for a month, if all goes well, starting Monday. 

1 month ago · 3 ♥
recoveryaffirmations:

Submitted by the lovely wondercra-com

recoveryaffirmations:

Submitted by the lovely 

Recovery

exist-ed:

The best way to relate to recovery is to a broken leg.
You didn’t choose to have a broken leg,
it just happened.
You shouldn’t walk on your broken leg,
that will make it worse.
So you get a cast, have surgery and possibly crutches.
You are gentle and kind with your broken bone.
Sometimes, you’ll accidentally step on your leg and it will hurt,
and when the bone is no longer broken,
you will have scar.
And it may ache
but it won’t hurt
as much as if you decided to continue walking on it while broken.

Recover.

1 month ago · 105 ♥
“I’m sorry
I’m sorry for shredding you to pieces
when you deserved to be cherished
I’m sorry for the six years of abuse
I put you through and thought that you deserved
For the countless times I deprived you of things you needed because I thought you could survive with out it
For thinking you were meant to please others,
when you’re only purpose was to keep me alive
For the time I should have spent acknowledging the fact that you were already fine as is,
instead of tearing you down
For the amount of times I wished that you could change,
but you weren’t meant to be molded into something else
For the words I carved deep into your bones
that are scarred there for ever
For the time that I made you hide who you were
because I believed the world didn’t want to see you.
For the way I made you feel,
for pushing you too far,
you didn’t have to go that far.
For the way I didn’t recognize your existence
like I pretended you weren’t there,
when you were,
when you were screaming at me to take care of you.
You were not trash,
and I’m sorry for treating you like you were.
You are a universe trapped inside your bones
You are made of the same elements that make up the galaxy
You are stardust and are worth being here just like anything else.
You have life racing through your veins,
pulsing through your body
You have a heart beat begging to be notice,
pounding in harmony to the sound of life
You have flowers growing in your lungs,
blooming with every breath you take
You have a brain shouting thoughts,
good thoughts, let them be herd
You have a voice that can change the world,
so speak up, you are here,
let them know you are here
You have hands that’ll create anything you wish,
you only have to try.
I’m sorry for ignoring every hint you gave to me,
and thinking you were okay.
This is an apology for the time I spent despising you
This is an apology for destroying you
This is a promise that I’ll spend forever making it up to you.
This is a promise that I’ll love you and take care of you.
This is a promise that I’ll keep you safe
That is a promise”
- A letter to myself: Carol Shlyakhova (strong-but-breakable)
findingmyrecovery:

No weight goal will fix having self hate. That’s not where the solution is

findingmyrecovery:

No weight goal will fix having self hate. That’s not where the solution is

bybyeblackbird:

Johnny Depp on the topic of suicide. 
- Telegraph Magazine, 1995. [x]

bybyeblackbird:

Johnny Depp on the topic of suicide. 

Telegraph Magazine, 1995. [x]

When someone comments on my weight

edrecoveryprobs:

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Thank you

entwined-but-never-joined asked: Darling you are beautiful and not fat. You deserve help. You are not the biggest. You are a beautiful angel. You deserve love and acceptance of yourself. You are loved and needed. You are my gorgeous girl. I love you

I needed this thank you

gerardwoah:

'It's all in your head'

yes
which is why it’s called mental illness you incompetent piece of shit

Anonymous asked: you can take my tummy i dont want it

chirusse:

Nooo you should want your tummy!! Tummies are very good and happy.

Look- you know, I went for a very long time hating myself and my tummy and tummies in general, but I was very sad all the while. It’s taken me a long time to feel better about myself and my body image.

But tummies are good! And not having a tummy can be good too! It all depends on how your body stores/burns fat and how you build muscle. Don’t feel bad about having a tummy. Tummies are wonderful and you should protect your tummy because there is no shame in having one.

My name is Lili.
20 yrs old; Straight.
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This blog is like a diary to me.
I don't promote anything.